All Caught Up

I may or may not have just written the last three days worth of blog posts because these last few days have been chock-full (I JUST LEARNED THIS PHRASE WASN'T CHALK FULL) of illness and being tired and fighting with whatever is on my nose.

I worked today, not like anyone is surprised. But it was the first time in forever that I felt kind of back to normal illness wise. Tomorrow I open and I plan on it being a successful, stress free day come hell or high water.

I also learned that my transcripts and all my recommendation letters are in for both of my schools so now it is just up to my interviewing abilities to decide my future. I can do this. I believe in my abilities. I get to go to Howl-o-Scream on Friday.

Having Mental Breakdowns

... Isn't fun. Especially because of your life choices even those some of those life choices weren't even that bad of life choices. 

In short, over the last week I'm mad questionable time management decisions, I've behaved completely out of turn (insert Kelly Clarkson's I DO NOT HOOK UP here (no I didn't hook up with anyone... Technically)) and I've realized I'm starting to fall behind in stuff just because I know I can get away with it. This isn't okay. I don't like this me. I don't want to be this way. That's one of the many reasons I started this adventure into blogger world, to hold my self accountable for every thing I do and lately I haven't been. 

My actions over the last few days, why not illegal or immoral or anything along those lines, have no been my favorite. I don't behave that way. It's never been how I view my self and I judge others hardcore for pulling some of the thing I pulled this week. These were things I used to stand for and now I'm deprecating all of my own actions. 

April was supposed to be the back in track month. So far I've experienced failure, procrastination, a little too much fun, and a complete lack o motivation. I CAN'T LET THIS STAY THIS WAY. 

Tomorrow things change. Tomorrow I snap out of this rut I seem to be in and get my life back on track. Done with this.