Heeeeeeyyyyyy Sexy Lady

Today starts the second week of class and I have already given up on the little game I was playing with my self  about looking nice and put together at school. Maybe I should have made it publicly known instead of keeping it to myself. You would think that I learned that about myself from doing this the first time but no. Maybe I'll integrate the blog posts and Instagram to hold myself accountable (where have I heard this before? Hmmmm...) it is just finding the time and motivation to actually put effort into what I'm wearing.  I REALLY admire beauty bloggers/vloggers who can dedicate all of this time and effort into putting themselves together just to tell other people about how they did it. My life is in shambles compared to the level of put-together-ness those people must possess.

I just want to find or acquire the ability to be that person. I know it will take self effort and determination... I just know how to start that... Ugh. But!! I do have a killer selfie from yesterday that I am proud of ^_^  

Peter might hate this one but I think we both look cool (minus the guy in the corner). I'm really proud of my blending abilities in my eyeshadow though. Anyway, things to work on going forward .

Needing to Prepare

I took a GRE diagnostics test today and it didn't go how I thought it would. I've always been so good at tests like this and I've never, repeat NEVER, had to actually prepare for one. Today made me rethink  that whole mindset. Today made me worry. It made me worry about how little time I have to prepare for the first time I take this test and about all of the things I *thought* I was good at. What if I've just been really lucky up till now? What if everything I've accomplished isn't a result of my hard work and determination but of pure happenstance? 

And then I took a break. I calmed down, watched some vine videos and realized how insane I sounded. No one is perfect at everything. No one is even good at everything. The GRE is something I am going to have to work at. I'm going to have to devote a lot more time and effort into preparing for this test than I have for anything up to this point in my educational career. I'm going to do this without worrying and fretting that it won't be enough or that I'm not doing the right type or amount of preparation. I have to believe in myself and my abilities. 

I can do this.