Believe You Can

"You can do anything, just not everything"

Today was a long day. Work went from 8-2, I got to see Kayla from 2-630, and then I started watching the Teen Wolf season finale marathon when I came home while I finished the last few modules of my permit course.

However, that isn't solely why today was long. You see, days take much more of a toll when they make you feel completely incapable of doing anything. Like at work for instance, I had to fight the tears the feeling of failure brought on. I know I'm still learning but I dislike disappointing myself and the fact that I cannot do everything right and in a timely manner is disappointing to me. To make matters worse, I also failed another permit practice test which is even more frustrating. I've been reviewing all of these things for 6 years. Yes, I have only been really getting in to the little details of them for the past month but 6 YEARS of effort should not result in my passing only 2 out of 9 tests. I don't understand.

Luckily, Kayla and an email from Dr. Sullivan saying my goal statement was brilliant made today better. I am capable of doing things obviously, now it is just getting to do the things I NEED to do. Big plate of belief in one's self, table 12?

Good Eyeliner Day

Top liner can be a little intimidating for most people when it comes to line thickness, straightness, and matching. Times that by like... 1500 and you get what it is like when you're blind in one eye. I used to not be able to do it at all and I had to just use bottom eyeliner. Liquid liner (only Kat Von D Tattoo liner though) changed  all of that and now it is the only kind that I do. I still struggle with it though. Getting the flick just right, making the lines the same shape and thickness. I don't understand how makeup artists can do this.

Today in general was a good make up day but today's eyeliner was on point minus a little dot on my right lid. I had three co-workers compliment me on today's makeup look and I love when that happens. It doesn't *have* to happen though. I do make up for me and when I do my makeup I tend to walk out of the house feeling pretty fabulous. If only I could transfer that ability to everything that I do.


Side note: Birth Certificate has arrived and now all that is left is to reschedule (once again) and continue learning the material!