We've Been Through Days Of Thunder

But today wasn't that bad. Session went well and I was impressed with my makeup abilities given very little time. I like my outfit, I didn't feel incredibly sad. Group went extremely well for the first time! I spent money on new makeup which I probably should not have done. I should have just been good. I need to go grocery shopping and sit down and make a budget... And do laundry... And go so many places. 

Bed.  

Lose Track of My Lifelines, Lose Track of Myself

This week has been a week of early wake up calls which results in not a ton of sleep for someone who has night classes. That being said, I could learn to appreciate that routine if I could figure out how to fall asleep earlier. Anyway, today's work day was very long (9am-6pm) and resulted in three hours of playing the Sims in order to decompress (I MADE A KILLER WEDDING PROPERTY I AM SO PROUD). 

I then got to talk with Peter, Kayla, and Harley who shared their support and checked on me. My co-workers Lindsey(I don't actually know how she spells it) and Lori also checked on me today just to make sure I was doing okay. The answer is I'm doing better with things/ at handling my life, but I'm not okay yet. Words cannot express what it means to me to have so many supportive humans. I am so incredibly grateful. 

I'm, Gonna Swing, From the Chandelier

Even though I physically felt better today, I generally did not feel good. I saw my clients and failed at conducting group but I wasn't quite back to normal. I'm not sure where to go with this feeling. I know I don't want to do anything other than watch TV but I have things I know I need to accomplish. I also do not want to go back to work. This is not good either.  I wish I could pinpoint where this unhappiness or uncheerfulness stems from. It is imperative that I get back to normal. 

Gained Some Confidence

Another Saturday of closing by myself and this one felt a lot better! Now I have so many questions that I never thought to ask before but I felt okay about it! That is the important part.

All Caught Up

I may or may not have just written the last three days worth of blog posts because these last few days have been chock-full (I JUST LEARNED THIS PHRASE WASN'T CHALK FULL) of illness and being tired and fighting with whatever is on my nose.

I worked today, not like anyone is surprised. But it was the first time in forever that I felt kind of back to normal illness wise. Tomorrow I open and I plan on it being a successful, stress free day come hell or high water.

I also learned that my transcripts and all my recommendation letters are in for both of my schools so now it is just up to my interviewing abilities to decide my future. I can do this. I believe in my abilities. I get to go to Howl-o-Scream on Friday.

Today Was Better

It started at 6:30 in the morning but it was better. Yesterday's post still isn't done but today can at least be talked about.

A co-worker collected me from my house and we went to go learn some things about visual elements. To be honest, I don't feel like I really learned anything I didn't already know but it is always good to refresh. The next step is to practice and then practice and then practice again. That class ended at 10 so I went to McDonald's for some breakfast and then came home and napped. It was glorious. 

I ended up back at work to close out the day and it went easier than yesterday. There were no hiccups, there weren't too many guests to deal with, and I had time to get everything done. I'm feeling more confident about this whole closing thing although I definitely would rather work during the day. 

Bonus better point of the day: my eye makeup was on point. I'm so mad at myself for not getting a picture!