Today Was Better

It started at 6:30 in the morning but it was better. Yesterday's post still isn't done but today can at least be talked about.

A co-worker collected me from my house and we went to go learn some things about visual elements. To be honest, I don't feel like I really learned anything I didn't already know but it is always good to refresh. The next step is to practice and then practice and then practice again. That class ended at 10 so I went to McDonald's for some breakfast and then came home and napped. It was glorious. 

I ended up back at work to close out the day and it went easier than yesterday. There were no hiccups, there weren't too many guests to deal with, and I had time to get everything done. I'm feeling more confident about this whole closing thing although I definitely would rather work during the day. 

Bonus better point of the day: my eye makeup was on point. I'm so mad at myself for not getting a picture!

Well That's Peachy

And I'll talk about it tomorrow.

.... or 4 days from then. This was a Saturday post and it was my second time closing all by my self. Saturday during the day was okay. I won hundred dollars from a store called Tatyana which is where I got my 50's style bathing suit from. That was really exciting because it means a new interview dress AND it means I get to get Catherine something as well! She LOVES that store and there is no way I am going to spend 100 dollars all by myself.

The day got even better when I found out about my G-Little getting twin Littles this semester! The legacy of multiples continues! I was so excited for her and for our line that I came running down the stairs to tell my real sister. She of course had no idea what I was talking about but I just had to fangirl with someone! I hope I get to meet them soon so that I can plan for GGBig presents >:]

The awesomeness of that day ended there. I walked into work ready to conquer the day and have a successful Saturday closing. This did not happen. Saturday is a busy day all by itself. For some reason it felt so much more busy because it was my night. I don't get stage fright much anymore but that is the closest way I can describe the feeling I had on Saturday. I ended up having closing issues and I had to call for help, which isn't the part that bothers me. The part that bothers me is the fact that the issue that I had put me over half an hour. UGHHHHHH.

I know this isn't what it is going to be like forever. I know that I will get better at everything over time. I just wish I could fast forward my learning curve and be better at it now.

I Cried Because

Before I start, I should probably say that I can't tell you all the details. Today was hard. This is the third day of doing the best that I can at the job that I have. Except on the third day everything, felt just a little bit harder. 

I'm a pretty resilient person. But there are some things that I don't even realize are stressing me out until they're over. Now there are things happening for people that I can't talk about in situations I know nothing about that are affecting my life and today I thought I was doing alright regarding those situations. I wasn't completely wrong but I definitely did take more confidence in myself than I had abilities. I totally burst in to tears today when I realized that someone had come back from being away for three days And I did that because I was overwhelmed and  I didn't even know it. As soon as that person came back my thought process was "They're here, they can fix it" and I just started crying. I had never been so glad to see that person in my life than I was at that moment.

Now these aren't tears of sadness but tears of happiness. There were tears of happiness earlier on in the day as well. I was offered an interview for a grad program and I can't even begin to explain how happy and grateful and humbled I am for this opportunity.

I was already on a new adventure both at work and in my personal life but now a new adventure may be starting at school as well. Things are going to get really crazy really fast and I know that I have to keep how stressful my life is in check. I know that I can do this, I was born to do this. Now it is all about making it happen. 

Things To Do

My list of things to do at work has been taking over my list of things to do for Xavier and at home. I should send my transcripts to Xavier today and I will probably go do that aft I write this blog unless I fall asleep whole typing it. I also ned to finish cleaning my room, start answering more interview questions, call back Alexis, learn how to drive and I am sure I am forgetting something.

The Real Beginning

I know that I have talked quite bit about things starting to pick up at work but I was wrong until today. Today was busy and a little stressful but overall it felt okay. I stumbled a few times and I didn't know the answers to a few questions but that is okay. Now if I could only feel as okay about not being 1000% knowledgeable about or able to do certain things. It will all get there, one bajillion hour shift at a time xD 

While I was at worked I was notified that all of my UCF application materials have been received which is a huge relief! The email prompted me to make an account so I can watch the status of my application and I am hoping that this is a sign from the universe that an interview is in my future.

The day finished with a much needed visit with Catherine! 

We both took a break from our busy lives to chat and then we went and saw The Giver. I thought it was good but it was different from the book so if you read the book you may be a little confused/disappointed. It definitely got the same messages across though! 

Another Step Forward

This isn't all that exciting but my application has been received and updated for UCF! I am so relieved that everything is in and that I won't be denied based in a technical error. Now I just have to sit back, hope/pray/give good vibes for an invitation to interview for their program. 

Eyeliner on Flick

Okay so I might have stolen my title from Vine but I have no shame!! I did my make up today and my eyeliner was NEARLY PERFECT! The only thing that was off was the thickness. I am getting closer to conquering the beast. 

In other news, I went back to work after a beautiful day off and I don't even know what all I accomplished today, I just know it was hectic.  Afterwards I went to the eBar in Nordstroms and ordered my self a Mexican hot chocolate which is fantastic and I highly recommend it to everyone. When I finally got home I made dinner (it was gross but food has been gross lately) and then got on my computer to write things!

I used to write fanfiction and my own stories all the time but fell out of the habit when my IB exams became a priority. I wrote things on paper in college but I neverreally got around to typing them to post them on the Internet so I did that today instead of doing more loads of laundry. Do what you love right?